you
you did a lot to me, and I wasn’t ready for all of this. you made me feel things that I haven't truly felt before and I'm grateful for that but in the same breathe I wish I didn’t feel that at all. we got close to one another and you knew so much about me without me telling you much about me and I have never had someone show me how much they care about me like you have. for this I am sorry, I'm sorry that I am the way I am and that I play games and I don't know what I want in my life. I'm sorry that I have put you through all of this when you don't deserve it and I wish I could give you everything that you would ever want and more but I can’t and I won’t be able to do that because I'm broken and a product of my surroundings and I need to understand me first and accept everything about myself before I can truly love someone else, not that I don't love you because trust me I do. I miss you, I miss the daily conversations and how we would talk all the time from when we walk up till we went to bed, I miss hanging out with you even if it was from an hour or a couple of hours because within those hours they lasted forever. I miss you so much and once again I want the best for you and I'm not that and I won’t be and what I have done is what will be best for you and best for us. I ended it for us and wherever you are in the future I wish you the best and I will always keep you in my thoughts if I want to or not. I hope the best for you dude.
- confused youth
“I loved you long before I had the guts to let you know.”
— William Chapman (via quotemadness)
